Losing My Voice

Talking to Myself

I talk to myself, a lot. Apparently, that’s not normal.

Years ago, I somehow accidentally pressed the voice note button on my phone while washing my hands. The person who received the voice note was confused, thinking I was talking to someone else. I apologized, explaining it was just me talking to myself. They didn’t seem to believe me, because to them talking to yourself was odd.

When I’m talking to myself, I'm not looking for a response, just thinking aloud. Most of the time I’m working through a problem. I suppose my brain runs out of space and needs to be cleared out every once in a while.

I haven’t been feeling much so, what used to be daily written entries has become weekly. I’ve started recording my thoughts on my phone, and my journaling has slowly shifted to audio entries.

The audio logs began as a way to track my progress in speaking my target languages. At first, I recorded in languages other than English. The challenge of using another language helped me simplify my thought…